a smile lights up my life (:

Sunday, 29 April 2007

a day with mixed emotions.

Went for Singapore Indoor Stadium training today and it was a LONG training.
ended at 6pm! and because of that, i didnt go for the china trip post gathering.
not that i dont wanna go, it's really i CAN'T make it.
so many things ALL happening today.
well, anyway.. the training was quite fun.. and there are some NP ppl there also! which is quite shocking. haha. i didnt expect to meet someone from NP there.
so yea, i'm an official guest care officer of SIS :)

went down to ark for the last time in my life.
it was a very unusual scene, a scene that i never ever dream that it will happen...
all the waitresses and singers sitting together at a table listening to the other singers...
it's the FIRST time we're all customers. saw alot of regular customers too.
honestly, i wasnt really listening to the songs.. haha.
it's like a mini gathering for everyone and i guess after today, there wont be any chances for all of us to meet together already..
the service sucks, i'm really sorry to say this. PLEASE mr manager, go check out who we are first before telling us nonsense reasons why the drinks havent come after TWO hours. my volcano almost erupted. and for once, i'm a bitchy customer. haha.

towards the end of the show, i was feeling abit emo. so many memories flooded back. been working for this 'dang' for almost a year. and seriously it was a very different feeling just sitting down to watch. I still prefer to work on their singing days. haha. dunno why. and i seriously LOVE the regulars. they are so nice and friendly.

I thought i will be damn emo when i stepped out of the place, but weirdly, i didn't feel anything at all. not a tinge of sadness,nor a tinge of disappoint. just nothing. it just strike upon to me that 'leaving is a part and parcel of life'.

thank you to all these people who were here today:

flora,freda,yuchih,meilian,ximei,jianhua,ahdu,jiahao,jiehao,huiyi,yingying,rongting,liangwen,jean,
victor,hanyang,shihao and the very cute customer - wei bang :)

it made my very last time visiting the place a memorable and happy one.

pictures will be up soon.

smiled at 3:47:00 am

Saturday, 28 April 2007

i just feel.......lousy.

supposedly to be so happy that finally the long awaited weekends is here, and i'm going to KL!
but somehow at this moment..or rather moments before i just feel lousy. about everything.
not in any mood to do any work. dont feel like thinking about anything.
I just practically feel SIAN. total sian-ness.

just imagine that you get continuous SMSes to ask get something done and submit by WED when u're going on a relaxing trip on Monday and Tuesday.
just imagine your proposal being simplified until actually u don't have to even type out a proposal when u stayed up late last night till 3am to draw out the proposal.
just imagine someone tell straight right into your face hinting you that "hello~ i'm STILL of a HIGHER rank than YOU. YOU have to listen to ME"
just imagine someone make a sudden change in decision and the person is actually telling you that : 'eh, i dont really trust you. so i got the other person instead.' when you have worked so hard and be ready to commit in the task.

It's not their fault, they didnt do anything wrong.
just that i'm in a damn bad mood.

sometimes i really wish to lock myself up in my house, switch off all contactable devices and just be alone.
i'm always happy smiley cheerful kind, but i do need a rest at times.
i need my holidays. i want to just teleport myself to KL now, sit on the rollercoaster and scream my lungs out.
I NEED A BREAK.
i'm not a robot, i'm not a machine.
I AM A HUMAN,
human gets tired.
human wanna escape from life.
human needs to grumble.

I JUST WANNA GO TO KL NOW.

i'm sorry friends, it's just one of those weird times that hui mei is not feeling happy. that's all.
i'll be fine after a sleep. no worries =)

smiled at 12:08:00 am

Friday, 27 April 2007

zZZz

Ohyea! it's gonna be a LONG weekend for me =)
in class now. i'm trying not to fall asleep. sigh. it wasnt interesting, or rather i'm not interested.
4pm - come quick pls!

I'm using firefox now, and the editing toolbar appears! that's why u see that this post is quite different from the rest.. cuz it'd got COLORS =D

ahh.. my teacher is entertaining though, i shall pay attention.

smiled at 2:55:00 pm

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

updating..

alrite... here's hui mei updating on you guys of her recent busy life.

first i wanna make a complain! damn CBOX, my tagboard seems to dissapear. freak.

even though i quitted my job, but still i'm busy.
busy sleeping. busy eating. =D
no lah.
been busy writing and editing articles about the china trip.
and i'm bad at recalling things. stupid MP3 decided to play a trick on me by making all my recordings made in china GONE.
damn it. so i gotta recall whatever the tourguide said, gotta search online for info.
and sometimes i got so emo while recalling on the trip that i dunno how to continue the article. =D

schoolwork is piling up. THREE projects due on week five. where got time to do lah!
and one of them is to build a website. HELLO~ i got a FREAKING C for my webgraph. i'm dead.
this semester is plain boring. all the modules seems so unlively and uninteresting.
no more interesting and funny tutor like henghan. no more fun locvid. ahhh.
no more T110. no more crapping and bitching partners.

korean club meeting finally commences on this monday. the turn out rate was pretty good. i'm happy ; so does all the comm!
we gotta grabbed chairs from the other room and the room we're using was so packed with people! hee, packed.. cuz we didnt manage to book a LT due to the sudden change of cca day. but still, more people turned up than i expected! yay for us. :)

first day of ambs recruitment drive today. matthew and adam really make a pair of good DJ. haha. kept us entertained thru out our duty. not much sign ups today during my slots, guessed most of the interested parties had signed up during CCA fiesta. there were these three mcm freshies and they said school's been interesting. OHWELL. good for them. haha.
on a sad note, ida will no longer be incharge of ambs. though didnt like interact with her that much, but to me, she'd always been like a mummy to ambs. a nice mummy who always wear a smile on her face. everytime i see her, i'll be happy =D
now we'll be under uncle adrian's hands! and the first project coming up is SMArts, some sort like red camp, but it's only a half day programme for sec three students. IDEAS. i neeeed ideas to make the sec three kids entertained and happppy! haha.

ohyar, i got a new part time job. that is ushering for indoor stadium events! so dont be shock if u see me usher u during concerts or competitions at the indoor stadium. =D i need money lah. haha. i'm already gonna be 18 and i wanna live on myself!

i kept saying i want a holiday. i NEED a holiday to recharge my battery before all those crap projects come piling up like mad. and YES!! I AM GOING ON A HOLIDAY. okay lah. not really a holiday, but going to KL to take a breather on the labour day hols. i'm so glad i went to china. cuz i dont have school on mondays so i can go on the trip! =D and yea, NOT going with my family, but my friends. haha. or rather ex-colleagues? haah. whatever. we're now goood friends =P budden again, some cant make it cuz of schoool. ahhh. flora and freda!! why why why! why u all not having elearning week???!
gonna take a train there! cuz mr eric du INSISTED. FIRST time in my life i taking a train. yes. train as in those railway train. not MRT. i hope the trains are not those dirty uncomfy type one. if not eric du, u DIE. wahahaha. i'm damn damn damn excited lah. it's gonna be so exciting! =D auntie ximei is excited too! =D err,well. i'm going with young aunties and uncles. yes. haha. shall plan where to shop and eat when i'm in class tmr. heehee.

k lah, finished updating. gonna do homework then SLEEP.
tmr lessons from 8-5pm~~!! i have a sad life,yes i know. haha.
but doesnt mean i have NO life.
cuz it's MOVIE day tmr with my bunch of loving friends! =D
lalala. i'm happy.
random. random. =X

BYE!

smiled at 11:06:00 pm

Monday, 23 April 2007

秋天不回来

秋天不回来王强

初秋的天冰冷的夜回忆慢慢袭来
真心的爱就像落叶为何却要分开

灰色的天独自彷徨城市的老地方
真的孤单走过忧伤心碎还要逞强

想为你披件外衣天凉要爱惜自己
没有人比我更疼你
告诉你在每个想你的夜里
我哭的好无力

就让秋风带走我的思念带走我的泪
我还一直静静守候在相约的地点

求求老天淋湿我的双眼冰冻我的心
让我不再苦苦奢求你还回来我身边

a song my china kids taught me and sarah to sing.
suddenly just feel like posting it. searching through the photos for suitable ones to go with my articles, and happened to see a clip of the boys singing this song.
well. memories.
i cant believe i actually misses my china kids, the fact that i just dropped like a few tears when we bid goodbye. haha.
ah. getting emo.
alrite, back to writing my LAST article(finally) and doing more editings. cheer for me man! =D
and yea. china post will be up REAL SOON :)

smiled at 1:52:00 pm

Sunday, 22 April 2007

no title.

sorry for not updating guys..
really busy and not in the mood to update.
gotta settle so many things. argh.
promised will blog soon after i've settled my stufffs =D

smiled at 10:36:00 pm

Wednesday, 18 April 2007

busy.

school started. damn busy lah.
supposedly to have mon and wed off, but i still went back to school.
ah. not in the mood to blog now.
off to complete my china trip publication.
really wanna finish everything by tonight. I MUST.
blog later.

smiled at 7:43:00 pm

Sunday, 15 April 2007

just for ark friends.

Wrote this on 10 march, after my last time working while listening to monsters dang.
been almost a month since i quitted ark. please dont ask me why i quit, i'll just tell you cuz i wanted to concentrate on my studies. yah.
spent almost half of my year one nites working in ark..the experience was great. met alot of nice people and made a few good friends.
and yes. i finally quitted before the china trip.
like i'd said, this holiday was definitely one of the most memorable.. sad things happened and one of them is quitting ark.
but the most sad thing was when i received an sms from dear freda while i'm in china supposedly to be happily enjoying the two weeks. after reading the sms and checking my email really not in good mood to enjoy anymore. although i had this strong feeling that this would happen when i'm away. i'm just shocked that it really happened and i cant be there to see the last performance. but anyway, everyone has to head for better future at certain point of time. sometimes we have to leave behind what we value the most and just move forward. and sometimes, we have no choice but force to leave what we enjoyed the most because of unforeseen circumstances.

after the china trip, i learnt to really cherish everything i have and i really gotta say this to my ark friends:
though we may contact less in the future as everyone is busy with our own stuffs, but you guys are always my best best friends. love you all forever.

————
3月10日－最后一次做monster的挡。

我其实很感动的.. 只是不想在朋友面前流泪。
毕竟我要开心的度过这一晚。这是我最后一次站着听monsters的档了。
我想听的歌...全都有听到..
台上所说的每一句话，我都有仔细听..
我真的很感动.. 只是因为在工作，也不能有什么情绪起伏吧..
我要一一感谢每一个人...你们可能不会看到..但我还是想写出心中的感受...
（顺便练练我的华文...哈哈哈..到了中国才不会丢脸！）

谢谢健华..你的《火光》我很喜欢。谢谢你唱了这首歌,这首歌对我来说意思非凡。
根本就没有其他歌手要学石康军的歌....!! 说真的没有想过你会唱这首歌.. 从去年我一进来我就有点..一年了，你终于让我最后一次做monsters的档听到了这首歌..超感动的...台下沉默的你，也有有趣的一面。其实你每一次做的小小举动我都有注意到..可能你觉得只是一种礼貌还是什么，但这些小小的举动却令我很感动.. 还记得你是第一个和我说话的歌手！＝）今天的《我又初恋了》超high的。

谢谢阿杜..很喜欢你的英文歌曲..哈哈..也因为听你唱英语歌，我才慢慢接触英语歌..以前你常会下来二楼和我们哈拉，让我的工作心情也好起来，因为你每次都很animated，超好笑,而且每天都很象很happy的，让我们也很happy。还记得你说你有个老师长得很象sunflower!! 木船认识的第一个歌手就是你啦..因为张家豪的关系..
觉得说当你的朋友很幸福，因为你太会entertain我们了..每次都让我们笑＝D

谢谢惜美..不知为什么只要是看到你我的心情都会很好～你就是有那种魅力... 而且你是我们的可爱宝贝..＝）觉得你是一个很真诚的朋友，不会做作。我超喜欢你唱的《菊花台》..现在在我的mp3咯！（oops, 没有copyright issues hor? =P ) you never fail to cheer and support your friends. 真是一个很难得的朋友... 跟你聊天总是没有压力.. 你很可爱！！其实也很美丽。真的。

谢谢美莲..你就像是个大姐姐一直照顾我们..一个很好的姐姐.. 也从来不会忽略任何人的感受，从我的观察啦.. 你是个很关心朋友的天使..＝）也觉得你是一个很真诚的朋友，不会做作。虽然他们都说你很象TANYA，但我觉得你比她更有一种Xfactor.. 很喜欢你的歌声.. 记得了，不管别人怎么说你，我们都一定永远支持你的，就因为你是美莲。加油！＝）

谢谢阿达..我真的不知道要从哪里开始。虽然和你认识也并不算太久，但总觉得好像认识你很久了。你写的寄语，虽然简单..但我是真的感动了。很喜欢你率直的个性。＝D 和你工作也非常愉快。哎呀...我真的不知道要写什么了.. 因为太多太多东西要写了。一切尽在不言中。我真的很感谢上天让我认识你一个这么好的朋友。

谢谢阿花.. 也不知道要从哪里开始写。虽然只是短短一年的友谊，但好象老朋友一样无所不谈。你有时的blur让我觉得很可爱.. 哈哈.. 觉得我们女生当中你最mature了..谢谢的照顾。每次看到你，你总是笑脸迎人，我自己心情也好起来。真的，一切尽在不言中。能认识你一个那么好的朋友，我实在太幸运了。

谢谢阿花，阿达..你们每次都会帮我买晚餐。这份工作，因为有你们，变得很愉快。

谢谢aunty choonwei.. 虽然与你一起工作的时间不是很多，但也不算少。你超搞笑的啦，每次和你做工十分轻松愉快。你的三八-ness,让我佩服地五体投地。哈哈哈。还记得有一次完全没有顾客，我们便决定做ice-kacang, 可是失败。记得你说过如果对一个地方产生了感情，要离开就很难了..我深深地体会到了。哎～ok lah, 跟你学了也不少..everything 都平感觉.... but in conclusion，你是一个可以一起bitch人的好朋友。

谢谢良育.. basically我只和你一起工作不到三次... 哈哈哈.. 但至少都是愉快的。身为当中最老的(opps)，你当然最成熟啦，也想很多..你真的是有很多interesting 的 stories 跟我们分享.. ok lah, 你这个uncle说的话有些其实蛮有道理的。知道你是个重情谊的人,人虽以在美国了，但是还是会担心这里的情况。希望你在美国过得不错，回来后大家再聚一聚吧.

谢谢毓芝...每次都会让我做bar.. 哈哈.. 也是一句：一切尽在不言中。你死定了，我逼你做我这辈子的好朋友。哈哈哈。我们一起进来工作，但是没有一起离开。但我希望你知道什么是为自己最好的。也因为这份工作，让我们更close. 真的，你注定当我这辈子的朋友了。

谢谢心情客栈... 真的很谢谢你们.. 每次星期二的课从早上8点到下午5点,真的很累很没有心情听课..但是你们是我的动力..每次告诉自己，熬过去，听课..然后就可以去做工了！而每次你们都那么的尽心尽力演出..uncle yeo, 榕庭，慧仪的jokes都让我心情好起来..与其说是到那里做工，不如说是enjoyment after a tiring day. 有时你们明明就心情不是很好，但到了台上还是一样的entertaining.. 做你们的档快要有一年了.. 是一种缘分吧...因为在毫无选择之下，我一进来时，XX就安排我做星期二了. 后来上课了，知道timetable是到5点还是照做..而有一段时间没有做星期二，真的很不习惯。谢谢你们有时会点歌给我们，和customers一起帮我们庆祝生日，我真的很感动。很可惜我的最后一天不是做你们的档....但the good memories always stays. =)

谢谢心情客栈的customers..你们真的很nice 很可爱很 supportive。有些customers 我不用问就知道你们要点什么水了.. 熟客的名字也知道七七八八了.. =) 下次我们就一起是customers 了。

还有很多人我要谢..
翰扬－－每次都让我suan..but thanks for spicing up my working day. 但你真的是一个很棒的表演者..舞台是属于你的.. 加油 antonio ！=)
eugene －－每次都suan我. tmd. but still, thanks for ur entertainment every time. 你终于唱了世界唯一的你。NICE.
jean －－有空就会跟我们哈啦.. 很关心照顾我们..
周猛－－你的笑话实在有够冷啊！！但真的很好笑。也进步得很快。
mark －－每次被我suan,也会suan我的ahbeng keyboardist. 你真的很很很厉害ok. 第一次有CD不是歌手签名的，而是词曲人签名..happy rite? but still, thanks for the entertainment every thurs nite.
sugi －－超超超搞笑的..每次你有来唱，我一定会笑死cuz of what you said.. too bad 我以后没做了,no more milo for you.
juwind －－有时会送我们小小的礼物..会miss这个可爱的你..＝）
杰伟水桶－－另外一个讲话也能让我笑死的人。

最后谢谢 weiyang, ah cheng, micheal, rina, shihao, angeline, lilian, linjuan, weixiong, kewei, dayvid and kitchen people. 所有nice的customers- pearlin and friends, nv ren bang, derrick, shi hua, my memory, liang jing ru table and lots more.

thanks everyone for making my one year of sailing life memorable and joyful.

smiled at 1:57:00 am

Friday, 13 April 2007

FRIDAY the THIRTEEN.

today is FRIDAY the THIRTEEN. hoho.
but nothing bad happen to me.yet.
went to school for two days to help out with some freshies survey thingy.. quite fun lah. but i dont think i'll wanna be a surveyer next time.
holidays is gonna end. damn it. so many things not yet accomplished.
but still, this holiday has been a good one. some sadness, but more happy moments.
off for dinner now. blog more later. =)
ah yes, china post coming up!

smiled at 7:01:00 pm

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

I'M BACK.

alrite guys, i'm back!! ( for a long time actually.. haha..)
busy with stuffs recently, hell lot stuffs to settle and follow up after the two weeks in china.
two weeks in china was HEAVEN. thought the food kinda sucks, but still edible lah. HEAVEN because basically i can contact no one and no one can contact me. u can contact me but i dont need to reply, or i'll be nice and send a free sms from net to say i'm in china now! and run away from all the things i gotta do. well, i know that's running away from responsibility, which is bad, but still everyone need some kind of break at certain point of time right.
it's been a great trip. will be blogging about it when i get my photos up on net. sorry for the wait! but i'm seriously busy and sick. stupid flu bug, PLEASE GO AWAY.

till then.
take care friends! =)

smiled at 6:48:00 pm