a smile lights up my life (:

Sunday, 24 June 2007

smiled at 11:11:00 pm

Wednesday, 20 June 2007

life is unpredictable.

Just three months ago, i was in Qingdao, staying in Creative Technology hostel. And on the same day three months ago, it was the first time we stepped in Liu Gou Creative Pri School.

It's not even 100 days, and there will no longer be Qingdao Creative Technology. I just found out the sad news from kwangwei that Creative sold the company to another Singaporean company.
From today onwards, QD Creative technology has become a history. It's not even 100days, and this drastic event happened. It just totally shut off our connections with the primary school.
I always thought that Creative will always be there and somedays we can make our way back to visit our kids and stay in the quite comfy hostel.
But now..
Will the school still be there?
Are the kids still able to study?
The primary sch is being funded by Creative.. but now that creative QD will no longer be there... what will happen to the school? and the kids?
Sigh. it's really saddening. i cant accept the fact that this is happening.
I just pray that my kids will be doing well and they will be receiving proper education.
I missed my kids alot. Sometimes when i see kids at the bus stop or the playground, i'll just think of my china kids. They are just so nice and innocent. so sincere and warm.

sigh. why is all this happening?!

smiled at 11:49:00 pm

Thursday, 14 June 2007

it's all my fault.

for once, i think i really made a big mistake.
but what's done cannot be undone already.
and it's no use saying "if i didnt do that..", "if" is no longer in use.
hope there is still some space for salvage.
i am really sorry for all the troubles cause because of this.
it taught me a great lesson: always think ahead and see the bigger picture.

i never ever expected it to turn out this way.
and i must really thank the key person for making all this happen. THANKS ALOT.
thanks for all the troubles u've caused me, all the explanations that i got to do, and all the time i spent worrying and blaming myself. REALLY THANKS ALOT.
and another bigger lesson learnt: never trust people's words. NEVER.
at least i lost my trust for you now. completely.

everything seems to point back at me. it's my fault. YES.
everything is my fault. happy?

damn the world universe. why are human beings so nosy. why cant they just care about their own life? WHY?!

smiled at 12:42:00 am

Tuesday, 12 June 2007

Dreams...

"Even though i complain sometimes, it's because i'm the heart of a person, and people's heart are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they dont deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."
- Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Finished reading the book! =D
As i'd said ample times, it was a good one.
It's really inspiring. When u feel like giving up, clam yourself down and take a few hours to read the book.

Tomorrow shall start reading the Chinese version one =P maybe i'll come to an understanding of more things about life.

Had my radio test early in the morning today, was pretty good. I'm glad to have an understanding and nice tutor, mr kwek :) Hmmm, maybe i shall venture into radio and do the off-air production works. YEA, but a chinese radio station pls. i cant speak english fluently for nuts. That's one thing i seriously have to brush up! My grade was quite decent, WHEE.. you know why!? cuz i played Jones' song. wahahaha. I cant stress enough that his songs are really good. =D i'm getting back the passion i used to have for radio. but being a radio DJ is a difficult job. i still prefer behind the scenes kind of job.

Talking about job, i was contemplating the whole afternoon about where should i go for my job attachment, provided i was given IAP instead of IBP. PLS! i dont want IBP! i'd enough of projects!!!! I always hoped to get attached in an artiste management company, then shadow the artiste manager and learn as much as i can; maybe make some phone calls now and then, arrange the artiste's schedule, organise events, go out and negotiate on partnerships etc. Artiste management is challenging and it's way more than being a nanny, someone's future is on your hands! Then everything i learn can be in practice: PR, Advertising, blah blah blah.
The job sounds fun, but i know it's alot of hard work too. Budden i'm a hardworking person, any companies want me? =D
Or maybe i should just go back to SPH?
UFM1003 sounds good too....
Magazines companies are interesting too..
Mediacorp isnt bad too...
Maybe i shall start contacting the companies to ask them if they want interns. Shouldnt wait for the school to arrange one for me. So i've more choices to choose from!
ARRGHH. but cant decide on where i should go for my attachment, not to say my career path!
I shall consider hard and set on my dream and go all the way to pursue it!! YEAH! =D

Everyone! GO FOR YOUR DREAMS!
when u want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. - the alchemist

smiled at 12:13:00 am

Sunday, 10 June 2007

tired legs,sunburnt arms and a cute rabbit.

my legs are tired!
walked around orchard for 5 hours today. and pockets had got BIG BIG hole now.
spent alot lor! argh. but i bought nice nice clothes. =X
aunty mei, aunty da and aunty hua went around in search of discounted items. hahaha.
had our dinner at hans. didnt know that harsh brown could be changed to fries! BUT just a few pathetic strands of fries. haha.

morning had amb inauguration for the new recruits this year. left halfway and headed to bontanic gardens to help yc for her filming. WALUA EH. it's DAMN freaking hot. my arms are sunburnt. missed loc vid alot..esp the filming days! luckily we chose to do indoor shots last year, dont have to torture our actor, not like YC! bleah! i want compensation!

it's the official first nite of holidays, and i'm gonna sleep early! well, if u consider 1am as early. hahaha. i can predict i will be sleeping the whole day tomorrow also. hahaha. finally can have a gooooood rest.

ohyeah, before i go.. here're two cute photos:

Obviously, it's not my rabbit. i cant have pets. i'm evil. i'll torture them. HAHAHA. no lah, just dont have the time to do so. This little rabbit here belongs to the artchemist performing arts academy. He's really cute =D ahhh, reminded me of my very first pet i had, a white rabbit who died after two weeks =( NO! i didnt torture it. it just died like that. sigh.
ohyea, his name is kokoro, and i seriously think it's a name for a cereal, like cocopops. HAHA.
kokoro, new corn cereal with a mix of butter and milk . OPPS, i can foresee someone is gonna kill me. =P

smiled at 12:19:00 am

Saturday, 9 June 2007

你会有回到舞台的一天。

been working at indoor stadium a few times already. and everytime i was there, i cant help but to think how great would that be if the person on the stage performing is jones aka shikangjun. i always got this strange feeling that one day, he WILL make it on that stage.

maybe you havent heard of who he is. but most of u confirm will know who he is cuz u'll hear me ramble and ramble on about him. hahaha. hui mei only supports real talents k. got chance borrow his CD from me lah. is damn nice i tell you. honestly first time i hear, i didnt like it. cuz those songs are not those "market songs". but upon hearing the second time... wahseh, u'll fall in love with his songs. ok lah, i understand different people have different likings and taste, so if you find mine weird i also wont bother, cuz i like can liao. whaha. =D
but really, his vocals is damn the good. people who dunno him, go GOOGLE "jones shi kang jun". =)

the day may not come soon, but it WILL eventually come. i confirm sure wont work, and go buy first class seat tickets. hahahaha. =D
eh really lah friends, if there is a chance next time, i bring u all go listen him live.. if u like good vocals, tell u, u sure fall in love with his voice! yeaa.

okkk.. damn hyper now, but still gotta go sleep.
tmr gotta wake up at 7am!
oolala~ shopping tmr!

smiled at 1:33:00 am

Friday, 8 June 2007

holidays?

it's term break. finally!
really time to take a break before the hectic term2 starts! heard that it would be like hell.
damn pissed with myself. cuz basically for the past 8weeks, i havent been studying and listening to lectures. damn it. why why why?!
i'm gonna buck up during the holidays. i am. =)

BUT as usual, holidays are always NOT holidays.
ahh. really missed the period after "O"s where i did slack for like few weeks doing NOTHING but sleep, eat, watch TV and surf net. the pig me. =P
now to think of it, though i missed those days, it's also a stupid way of spending holidays.
at least should do something more enriching lah. regretted not learning keyboard or guitar then, now i dont even have the time to learn =( *shake head*

two weeks of holidays and i'm quite packed already. or rather i am gonna make myself busy. haha. cause i dont wanna waste any time anymore. will just make sure i get sufficient sleep during my holidays, which is at least 8hours! woot. =D

camps fill up almost one week of my holidays. sigh.
projects and assignments are along the way too.
gotta catch up with schoolwork.
itchy hand me wanna complete some articles during holidays(which means more proposal writing, phonecalls, interviews,writing and editing.BLAH!) =D
plus gonna finish reading three books.
and plan to meet and catch up with my dear friends!!
intend to go watch artchemist, MONsters and mood inn performances also.
MUST try to at least go for MONsters. felt so bad that their first official nite at aqh i cant make it.
ahh.. i can foresee i will be spending quite a lot money. =(
MONEY MONEY drop from the sky pleassee~

there goes my 2 weeks sweet and short term break!

on a happier note, i finally found "The Alchemist" book again yesterday! *hooray to Nat'l Lib*
Actually read the book once already, but didnt get the very full picture and understanding of the book cuz i read it quite hurriedly, but the book was really good. So i planned to reread to get the full essence of the book!
And this time round,i even borrowed a chinese version of the book just in case, cause *ahem* some one said i read chinese books TOO MUCH so i wasnt able to get the full essence of the book in english. thanks lor, jones. I dont read chinese books. erm, secondary school textbooks and chinese literature books counted?
whatever, i'm gonna slowly read this book and suck out all the essence.
it's a really good and worth reading book.
if you like comics, go read Buddha by Osamu Tezuka...
Osamu Tezuka is the creator of Astro Boy!!
was doing some research on astro boy and found the name of the book familiar cuz remember reading somewhere that this Buddha series is highly recommended to read. =)

sleeeeeeply now!!!
byeeee~

smiled at 12:13:00 am

Sunday, 3 June 2007

the world is so small =D

busy week! but enriching and memorable week too :)
tons of stuffs to settle after coming back from PRE-U camp.
i really love my lecturers, thanks for postponing the deadlines! if not i'll be really DEAD.
thanks mr kwek for understanding my situation. not like some others. =X

i'm in the midst of rushing my website now... =(
i really suck at it lah. i'm so NOT IT savvy please.
but i'm gonna put in all my best. my other modules results sucks like shit.
hai. what's happening to me!!!!!!!
HUI MEI!! WORK HARD! =D

this week was super slack week in school, one day of lectures and one day of tutorial. call that school. if every week is like this, i'll be damn happy. why public holidays dont fall on every week.

wednesday had a pre-birthday celebration for jianhua, cum gathering cum steamboat eating session. =D
it's always so fun to hang out with this bunch of friends, they never fail to cheer up my day.
but too bad something spoil my mood after the steamboat, so didnt go for the KTV session =(

thursday was another busy day despite being a public holiday. and it was the day also where i met this damn talented person. i really felt like xray-ing his brain. how can he be so talented! spent 6 hours on an interview! the longest interview i ever done till now. thank god he was cooperative and affable. =D i was so tired after i reached home and didnt touch my website.. there goes my public holiday....

website!!! die...
i was doing some research just now and shockingly, i found out that my used to be junior is related to this person i'm doing my website on. the world is really small.
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smiled at 1:09:00 am