so today was appreciation dinner over at jurong camp. for both the army & volunteers..
one more leaders' appreciation day & ndp09 will be officially over. i'll miss the days, but life still goes on! chingay 10 is up next! (:
the dinner was held in a hall. macham like secondary school orientation like that. & it's quite 'chui'. hahaha. okay lah, but the rushing down was worth it cause it's been two weeks since ndp passed & it's nice to see people again that i'd always see them at least once a week for the past two months.
it's like my life now revolves around ndp people. haha. yihan says it's quite gay, cause we meet up almost every other day after ndp ended! i do know that these kind of days will be over soon... that's why i'm taking time out now to treasure the last few moments together. haha. sounds gay! thinking back, it's quite surprising how everyone got so close together... and i'd many of my firsts with them - going to henderson waves; going to pulau ubin; late night durian session + ECP; camwhoring at the airport... all these wonderful memories...
i'll be really sad if we all just part our ways as time goes by.. i know it's unavoidable lah.. well, at least, we still have the memories together! this is one of the reasons why i'll always bring my camera out & snap crazily. it takes two sides to make a friendship last, but as time goes by, i don't know how much effort will we wanna spend to keep this special friendship going. but definitely, i'll put in my 101%, cause these friends are hard to come by. how many times will you meet a group of friends whom you can hit off so well the very first time.
had a nice short catch up with ahtham, the top sector army ic that i worked quite closely with during shows. i still rmbed he's the first army guy that came to talk to me during CR3 and he left me a very good impression cause he's damn friendly. haha. he was saying how 'UP THERE' (sorry ah, alot of army terms recently. haha. cause we're going thru our BMT 101. lol) we're on the actual day.. and his friend from green sector was saying that how come he's like quite 'gum' with the ushers and we hala-ed quite alot. and what makes me really happy was that i think this time round, i succeeded in my communication & PR skills. hahaha.
some people may think that we're flirting with the army guys, always talking to them and laughing together with them... please man, this is call PR skills lah can. if you don't communicate, how can you work things out right... how would things go so smoothly? how come there's no major cock-ups? one thing i've learnt from many of my experiences, is to treat your working buddy like a friend first.. & things will definitely become so much easier. & it works this time round.
i've tried so hard to make everything work nicely and smoothly & all i get is "you always flirting with XXX up there lor." how do you think i'll feel? honestly, the feeling sucks. can't someone just understand what's PR? sigh. i know it's all over, but i just don't feel good when i hear about this. even if it's just a passing remark that might be meant to be a joke. some things, just cannot anyhow say, it hurts, a lot. specially when the words come out from a person that you thought understood you well enough.
whatever lah. shouldn't get emo over this! (: anyway, school has been quite alright so far! and speaking of which, i need to go and read my readings for tmr's lecture. it's freaking a lot of pages! =/ but i promised to myself that i'll be a obedient student, so i'm gonna read before i sleep!
sat finally meeting up with ark buddies! after so long! i'm very looking forward! (:
i know i shouldn't be affected. though actually i'm quite affected, but i've gotten over it.
cause it's funny enough to be a part of my memory, so i'm writing this down. but it's kinda emo also though!
a friend got quite upset about some stuffs that he wasn't aware of until today.. i totally understood how he felt, cause i've gone through this kind of things before... it's never easy to be a leader or an overall incharge..i hope i managed to enlighten him a little.. and i think i did, cause he said he's gotten over it. perhaps because we're same horoscope, i know where he's coming from & it's easier to understand. surprisingly, we chatted for quite long, long enough that i know he's quite affected and sense that he's really upset. i know although he said he's gotten over it, but part of him will still be thinking about this.. this is just what libra-ians are like.. we always think a little bit too much. i need to think of something to make sure that i really convince him that he shouldn't blame himself!
okay, so here comes the funny part! after consoling him, it's my turn to get upset. haha! like seriously leh, of all times. i'm kinda affected by what i heard, but then again, it might not be true. okay, it could be true at that point in time, but maybe it's not true now... so why should i get so affected right... but i just feel upset hearing those things, although i don't know at which point in time were the words being said. if it's before, yes then totally not affected, but if it's just recently, i'll be damn disappointed. i just don't like the idea of people being untruthful or say things that doesn't come from their hearts. if you're not sincere, then don't say! that's the thing that's annoying me. then again, i learnt from grp 5 - TRUST. so i should trust who i believe to trust. even if it's true, i can't change a person's heart what right. just one friend down on my list of friends only mah. haha. i'm quite affected by this also; and the best thing is, we're both affected by the same general thingy.
didn't let him know, cause i dont wanna add somemore burden already.. anyway, like him, i've gotten over it... (= way to go man, libra-ians! :D
smiled at 12:56:00 am
from friends to family.
a feeling that i've never really have before; this is weird.
maybe i'm just too tired. maybe, i'm just to used to it.
ndp's over for a week. yes, i do miss those fun times and working on ground for the shows, but i've no tinge of sadness when it ended. honestly. cause i know that we'll still keep it touch!
& these people has suddenly become such an important part of my life despite only knowing them for two months. it seems like they've entered my life since i'm on earth. i can only say, it's all fate.
i've never forgetten all of you thou, you guys are still my best buddies! yes, if you're reading this, i'm referring to you! cause i dont publicise my blog. & it's not that you guys are of less importance! i still love you all and miss you all k!
maybe cause we're so used to seeing each other at least once a week for the past two months, it's like life would be very weird & empty without them now. it's just a few hours that i've last seen them, and i start missing them already. hahaha.
been a great night yesterday! but i'm damn tired to blog about it now... will blog soon! (: i need to sleeeeep like now!
smiled at 3:57:00 pm
happy birthday singapore! :)
so.. it's all over.
gosh. i've been awake for 44 hours!
so much for celebrating singapore's 44th birthday! hahahaha!
<3 ndp ushers; <3 blue sector! (: (: (:
my eyes are closing. i'll blog more when i wake up!
smiled at 4:12:00 am
BLUE SECTOR IS LOVED! :)
i'm like super super high now.
PREVIEW is over. yay but sigh! that means only one show left! =/
from the moment i jumped out of bed this morning, i'm already damn high. haha. i dunno why!
[before i continue, let me just note down that i went for Oweek on thurs and it was not bad! :) gosh, i love NUS FASS
unexpectedly! haha. & yea, i got all the modules i bidded for! :) & ralentine rocks! :) ok, more about school soon! NDP first! :) ]
i realised that i didn't waste my life away in indoor stadium. i didn't expect myself to really learn much from ushering at SIS, (cause truthfully, my main motive to work there is to watch free concerts & get to know more people!) but unknowingly, i did learn alot along the way. & especially these few months, having the chance to be a senior really taught me quite alot. i'm very glad that all these came in useful for NDP. :)
& ambassadors was good training ground also.. NDP is just like open house, at certain level... all the welcoming of people, putting on genuine smiley faces, giving directions.. ahhh! i miss OH too!
from the bottom of my heart, i'm really really happy & glad to be in blue sector! just like everyone else feels the same about their own sector too! haha :) i don't how other sectors are like, but one thing for sure, i'm already very satisfied to be in my sector. very very. i think life has treat me well so far and i'm thankful for that. i've always meet people whom i can easily work with or maybe it's just that i'm always nice & bubbly. hahahaha. (sometimes over crazy! hahahaha)
before we started going for shows, i've heard stories about how difficult it can be to work with the army people... but i'm really thankful that the army team i'm working with, are really easy people to work with & majority of them are nice! that makes everything easier & so much better, cause at the end of the day, we need to work as a team!
only thing i wanna complain about is.. why some of them just can't speak louder or open their mouth! tsk tsk. like JJ said, " be a man man!".. seriously sia, i'm such a demure girl (HAHAAH!) yet i've to speak damn loudly.. or rather shout.. even JJ said i've such a powerful voice. this is thanks to drama training. haha. lol. & i'm proud of my nickname loudie too. hahaha. i just hope i dont come across too fierce! next week, i'll be nice to the army people and ask them to help me shout. i'm like kinda voiceless now.. arghhh.. according to zhiwen & JJ, speak nicely to the army guys and it will work. hahahaah. i'll try! and i'll put on my SWEETEST smile. :D
will really miss ndp days lots! <3 my SOIC, my leaders, blue ushers & blue army people! :)
smiled at 1:30:00 am
ndp! <3
few more hours to PREVIEW :)
i really need to catch some sleep! but before that, i just wanna say:
I LOVE NDP USHERS DEEP DEEP!
SOICs + BLUE SECTOR = <3 !
smiled at 3:20:00 am
