supposedly to be so happy that finally the long awaited weekends is here, and i'm going to KL! but somehow at this moment..or rather moments before i just feel lousy. about everything. not in any mood to do any work. dont feel like thinking about anything. I just practically feel SIAN. total sian-ness.
just imagine that you get continuous SMSes to ask get something done and submit by WED when u're going on a relaxing trip on Monday and Tuesday. just imagine your proposal being simplified until actually u don't have to even type out a proposal when u stayed up late last night till 3am to draw out the proposal. just imagine someone tell straight right into your face hinting you that "hello~ i'm STILL of a HIGHER rank than YOU. YOU have to listen to ME" just imagine someone make a sudden change in decision and the person is actually telling you that : 'eh, i dont really trust you. so i got the other person instead.' when you have worked so hard and be ready to commit in the task.
It's not their fault, they didnt do anything wrong. just that i'm in a damn bad mood.
sometimes i really wish to lock myself up in my house, switch off all contactable devices and just be alone. i'm always happy smiley cheerful kind, but i do need a rest at times. i need my holidays. i want to just teleport myself to KL now, sit on the rollercoaster and scream my lungs out. I NEED A BREAK. i'm not a robot, i'm not a machine. I AM A HUMAN, human gets tired. human wanna escape from life. human needs to grumble. I JUST WANNA GO TO KL NOW.
i'm sorry friends, it's just one of those weird times that hui mei is not feeling happy. that's all. i'll be fine after a sleep. no worries =)
