a sudden feel of emoness.
Had BBQ today at du friend house with the fun bunch of friends from ark!
i was looking so forward but after few hours in sph, i have no mood to be high already.
sorry friends, it just happen to be a day where hui mei is really emo. i wanted to enjoy the bbq, have fun, relax, be crazy, be LOUD (which i did!woohoo) , but part of me was very worried about my article. it's a kind of helpless plus totally lost feeling that i havent been familiar with for months.
i just wanted to give my very best, i really need more ideas. i dont wanna sound so promising yet everything is just plain talk and nothing is done. that's not me. If i really wanna get things done, i'll be determined and put in my best efforts to make sure it's a good piece done. if not then dont even bother to waste the effort. but this time, determinedness is just a small part, what i need is a confirmation, an approval. which i didnt get it, if not i wont be so emo.
ideas~ i need you all now to come running into my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THERE MUST BE A WAY OUT!! emo hui mei is back again. rar~~
will blog abt the bbq when i'm feeling more crazy.