university.
and so.. my NUS scholarship application wasn't successful.
for the first time in my life, i got a rejection. don't worry, i'm fine :)
it's weird. i'm rejected but i dont feel any tinge of sadness. in the very first place, i didn't pin any hopes on it all. (and NTU confirm is gone case also! haha) back then i was thinking, since there might be a slight chance, why not give it a try. i tried, and i failed. but it's okay!
it's okay not getting something you wanted. cause i believe everything happen for a reason. something else is waiting for me i guess :)
i'm not a smart kid. there're definitely tons of people out there who exceled way much better than i did and there are more amazing people out there. the ones who deserved it, should get it. :) and on the related note, i'm really proud of you, my friend! U definitely deserved it and I know you'll excel. I'm really very happy for you.
i'm really thankful to ngee ann for being so kind to me for the past three years. it came as a surprise when i knew i got the scholarship. like i said, i was never a smart kid and there're many people out there who are better than me! i'm really thankful for the trust the committee had in me and the interviewers who believed in me back then. although i didn't graduate as the top student, but i managed to get myself a COM. that's at least something right. I will prove to those who believed in me that one day, i'll make it big. and i've never forget what ngee ann has given me for the past three years. that scholarship really meant a lot to me and it movitated me to work damn hard, and i swear i've really done my very best. if not for that, i don't think i would even have the chance to worry about choosing which uni now.
which brings me to another point, i'm kinda decided. thank you marvin for your long email. i really appreciated it alot and it definitely enlightened me. marv is one person that i really salute since i got to know him. and he's a PSC scholar! WOOHOOOO. i always felt that one day he'll become some MP (i had the feeling way before he got his PSC scholarship) and i know i'll be very proud of him, so do the rest of us. and cheryl hoon, i thank you for always supporting me decisions, and this time round, i'm sure my decision will make you damn happy. :)
hui mei is happy. with or without scholarship, as long as i work hard and put in my very best effort, it doesn't matter anymore. i know i'll do well. :)
